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Covid, Cancer and Coping: Lockdown Life Lessons


I did not know what to call this blog – but these three words seem to sum it up; by coincidence, they all began with a C. The word that stands out the most has got to be “Cancer”. Hearing that your sister has cancer was a hard pill to swallow. In fact, it was one of those pills that are easier to leave in the packet than choke on with a gallon of water.  I, for one wish I could change our reality. Never did I think that at twenty years of age I would have to go through seeing my sister have cancer. It is the thing you see on a Netflix drama or in the news of all the inspiring people that have had siblings with cancer at a young age. You never stop and think that could be you. I have said it more times than I can count over the past few months but I would do anything to take her place. The statistic is out there. It is blatant and thrown around: 1 in 2 of us will get cancer but you somehow block out the prospect that it could be you. Or even worse, it could be your sister who fulfils that statistic. 


We cannot control what we cannot control. Life takes us down unexpected paths; ones that not even a fortune teller can predict. What we can control, however, is how we cope with the path life takes us down. With my Mum working as a psychotherapist, I am well aware that there are certain ways we are likely to respond to situations due to the nature of who we are. As much as I wanted to block out the reality of my sister’s illness, I knew that at some point I would have to come to terms with it. As someone who takes a very practical approach to life, I wanted to know the best way I could help her. But that is not to say you can ignore the emotions attached to caring for someone with cancer. I felt guilty for showing emotion seeming as “I wasn’t the one with cancer”. I had absorbed the belief that I should be strong and have my sh$t together seeming as I was not the one suffering from a deadly illness. It was easier carrying on as if my life was still together seeming as I had not been diagnosed. Eventually, something has to give. I learnt that you can’t keep things bottled up forever.

 

 

Learning to cope with a sibling that has cancer is far from easy. 

 

Learning to cope with a sibling that has cancer whilst being in a pandemic is far from easy.

 

Thrown in with losing our cat, Violet, to cancer it has felt as if the world was punishing us. 

 

Mentally it has been a difficult time. But throughout these past six months, I am still grateful for the things I have. It has taught me how resilient I am and that I can get on regardless of what life throws at me. I thought I may share a few of the life lessons that this period has taught me.

 

Never Take Your Health For Granted 

 

If seeing my sister in a hospital bed via Facetime was not enough to make me appreciate my health – nothing would. Through witnessing my sister have to have multiple tests, procedures, and surgery I have become increasingly aware of how lucky I am to have good health. It has made me learn that our bodies are not bulletproof. There is only so much it can take and sometimes we need to be a bit kinder to ourselves. If something feels wrong, check-in with yourself. If you feel a lump: get it checked. If you feel too tired to workout: don’t. It is ok. I am not always the best advocate of being “kinder to myself” but it is an ethos I do my best to endorse.

 

 

Podcasts are a Gamechanger

 

Recently I have really got into listening to podcasts. I used to question people who swore by listening to podcasts when running but seriously, you do not know until you try. And when I did, I understood why people had been raving about it. Listening to podcasts on my runs (especially the longer ones) is a great way to keep my mind busy whilst simultaneously exercising; it goes with the saying "killing two birds with one stone" although, not very vegan of me. My favourites at the moment are Venetia La Manna’s ‘Talking Tastebuds’ and Rhiannon Lambert’s ‘Food for Thought’. I am always open to recommendations! 

Talk ! About ! It !

 

Easier said than done. But taking does help. Find someone you trust and immerse yourself in a DMC (Deep Meaningful Chat – I will save you the hassle of typing it into the urban dictionary).

 

Find a Side Hustle

For me, blogging has been a great way for me to dedicate my energy to something not work-related. Equally, I like to read. A good paperback, a cup of coffee and a cold afternoon sounds dreamy to me. Find your side hustle – let it be something you enjoy. It may take some experimenting before you get there but it will be worth it. 

Less Screen Time


It can be easy to fool yourself into thinking you are having a good conversation with someone without realising that you are not fully present, so often there is a third member in our relationship with another: our phones. When was the last time you went for a coffee with someone and switched your phone off and put it in your bag? Or when did you last go on Zoom and put your phone in another room? 

 

The same applies with watching a film or television. We watch a bit until our phone suddenly lights up. A notification. You then enter the social media vortex. 2 hours later, the film is over. “That was good wasn’t it” someone chimes. You agree in unison without realising that you most likely only absorbed 20% of the film with the other 80% being lost in likes, followers and TikTok. I believe it is important to sometimes switch our phones off or leave it in another room so we can fully engage in what is in front of us. Of course, no one is perfect and we are all guilty of using technology as a distraction, but we need to be aware that it can also become an addiction.

 


 

I hope my raw honesty could perhaps help in some way. As ever, I am so grateful for the support.

 

Lots of Love,

 

Is 


                                                                        Isabella Clark ©

The Entertainment Industry in Lockdown

Lockdown has taught us many things, but for the most part, I think it has also emphasized what is important and what is not. An industry that took a severe battering over the past 5 months is the arts. Many things we used to rely on for entertainment were taken away when it was announced that the air we were breathing was poisonous. Going to the theatre or cinema would be no more.


I would like to say lockdown has been relatively ok for a 20-year-old student, but I don’t think I can. It sounds melodramatic, however, lockdown has certainly tested me. After losing our beloved family cat, Violet, to cancer, I did not think much else could go wrong. Two months later, my sister was diagnosed with thyroid cancer. We were informed by the professionals that she would need surgery and further treatment. Though we were lucky to catch it as quickly as we did, and for Odette to have treatment very quickly, it was not an easy situation to have to cope with. Never did I think I would say that my sister has cancer at 20. Amongst the two hits of cancer our family has received, I've been trying to balance doing a degree online and managing my own mental health. I’d like to think lockdown has taught me to be resilient. 

 

                                Isabella Clark ©

Equally, I have many things to be grateful for; the continuous support from loved ones is something that I will forever hold close to me. And here are some of the things that have got me through the past few months. I have put my most highly rated in bold (aware I now sound like a Netflix category).

 

What I’ve Been Reading:

 

Once I had submitted all my work for my second year at Warwick it initially felt amazing. However, I soon became itching for something to fill my days with. I never thought I would miss sitting at my laptop, but, after spending months of Designated-Desk-Days it felt strange not having anything to dedicate my hours to. So, in preparation for my third year and general pleasure I have been taking to reading as much as possible.

 

Here are some of the reads I have got through (so far):

 

Fiction:

-       North and South by Elizabeth Gaskell

-       Rachel’s Holiday by Marian Keyes

-       Vanity Fair by William Makepeace Thackeray

-       The Picture of Dorian Gray by Oscar Wilde

-       Their Eyes Were Watching God by Zora Neale Hurston

-       The Caucasian Chalk Circle by Bertolt Brecht

-       Castle Rackrent by Maria Edgeworth

-       The Accidental by Ali Smith

 

Non-Fiction:

-       Coal Black Mornings by Brett Anderson

-       Notes on a Nervous Planet by Matt Haig

-       The Iceberg by Marian Coutts

 

Poetry:

-       Prufrock and Other Observations by T.S Eliot

-       Selected poems of Denise Riley 

-       Plath 

-       She Must Be Mad by Charly Cox

-       I Must Be Living Twice by Eileen Myles

 

Short Stories

-       Good People by David Foster Wallace

-       Corrie by Alice Munro

 

What I’ve Been Listening to:

 

I have also been listening to music every.single.day. Some new albums I have enjoyed are:

 

-       The End of Everything - Noah Cyrus

-       folklore- Taylor Swift

-       crybaby – Lil Peep

-       Chromatica – Lady Gaga

-       After Hours – The Weeknd

-       Notes On A Conditional Form – The 1975

 

 I make a Spotify playlist every month so I will leave a link to my profile if you are interested.


What I’ve Been Watching:

Another great way that the ats has kept us all occupied is through television; whether it be on Netflix, ITV, Iplayer, Amazon Prime and all of the above – we are so lucky to have the number of series, movies and shows that we do. Below I have listed all the programs and series I have watched during lockdown. 

 

Series:

-       Belgravia

-       The Fall Series 1, 2 & 3 

-       The Nest

-       The Split

-       The Crown Series 2

-       When They See Us

-       Luther

-       Doctor Foster

-       You Series 2

-       Unorthodox

-       Tiger King

-       Little Fires Everywhere

-       Salisbury Poisonings

-       Hollywood

-       Friday Night Dinner

-    The Marvellous Mrs Maisel

-       Normal People

-       Mrs America 

-       Desperate Housewives

-       Hillary

-       Jeffrey Epstein

-       Lil Peep: Everybody’s Everything

-       Celebrities In Therapy

-       Gwyneth Paltrow Goop Lab

 

Perhaps my lists can provide you with some inspiration over what you might next listen to, read or watch. Equally, if you have any recommendations for me, do let me know - some of the best things I have read and watched have been suggested by a friend.


Nevertheless, I hope this blog can reiterate how important the arts are in our daily lives. Could you imagine a world without music? TV? Books? I don’t think I would last long. 

 

Lots of Love,

 

Is 


                                Isabella Clark ©

Vita has also been a great source of entertainment during lockdown. 


Coping With an Eating Disorder During Lockdown


Trigger Warning: This blog does not intend to trigger anyone suffering from an eating disorder, but if you are in a vulnerable position, please do not read. I am not an eating disorder professional, just an individual sharing their experience. Your health always comes first. Stay safe.

With the world on pause, the NHS in a crisis, having a mental health condition feels selfish. People are losing their lives, and here I am complaining about something so relative. It takes strength to continually remind yourself that having an eating disorder is not a choice. It never was a choice. It never will be a choice.

I was diagnosed with anorexia nervosa at the age of thirteen. Now, seven years on, it is fair to say my family are well aware of the signs and symptoms of the disorder. The nature of anorexia is insidious. What starts as an innocent diet can quickly deteriorate into a full-blown eating disorder. This was the nature of how my eating disorder started. 

At the start of lockdown, the thought of being stuck in the house 24 hours a day with no escape took me to a dark place. I saw a tweet comparing lockdown to being in an eating disorder unit where days are spent waiting for the next meal or the next indoor activity – the similarities are uncanny. In many ways, lockdown does resemble being on an eating disorder unit; the only catch is: there is not the constant support of professionally trained nurses and therapists, nor is there a dietician providing you with an individual meal plan detailing the specific amount of calories you require to stay alive. It is down to you to make the decision. 

The announcement of lockdown felt like I was being sectioned. All responsibility had been taken out of my hands, and there was nothing I could do apart from complying. Without any structure, my mind usually spirals into an unhealthy cycle of deeming all I do as “unproductive” and a “waste of time”. Eating seemed another empty chore on the list.

The other superficial problem turned into a catastrophe for my structure-hungry brain was the fact that gyms were closing. Call it what you want: cross-addiction or coping mechanism, I am someone who has always found exercise as a way to keep myself motivated. But that is not to say that you cannot be a motivated person without doing exercise. It is just something that has worked for me. (Side note: the idea that food can only be earned through exercise is a myth I am more than happy to falsify). Between the ages of thirteen and sixteen, I was “banned” from using the gym since it was deemed too much of a risk to my fragile state of health. At sixteen, I plucked up the courage to ask the professional I was seeing to have permission to return to the gym and, to my surprise, I was allowed. The eating disorder voice relished at the news. However, I was under strict supervision and allowed to do no more than 25 minutes. My eating disorder hated the restriction and to be honest so did I. It felt impossible to ever truly get into a workout when you are being constantly watched. But years on and I can understand the worry my family had seen me slave away on the unforgiving cardio machines. 

Two years later, when I finally decided that there was only so many minutes you could do on the treadmill and so many hours spent gazing at the calorie display I decided to use the gym as a way to vent my stress. A form of catharsis. And a place where I could look after my body as opposed to destroying it. Hence, when it was announced that all gyms were closing, it is understandable why I felt negative about it. After spending so long working towards being able to use the gym for the right reasons, it felt as if it had all been taken away from me again. Yet, this time, it wasn’t of my doing. It was courtesy of a global pandemic. 

Lockdown would be the ideal time to allow eating disorder thoughts to trickle into my life again. But it would also be a challenging time to relapse. Being in a house with your family intensifies everyone’s habits and routines. If I began to restrict and engage in previous eating disorder behaviours, it would be all too obvious. My friends and family have witnessed it all in me: the relapses, the therapy sessions, an inpatient admission, the CAHMS appointments. Sirens echo and red lights flash when it is evident that I am “cutting down”. This can be really frustrating at times. What about the days when you just aren’t hungry or when you fancy doing a more extended exercise session? Eyebrows are raised, and people worry that you are resorting to old ways. However, hard at times, it can be to accept, I now have an awareness that it is because they care. No, it is not them wanting to see you “get fat”, it is because they are scared that it will lead you back to your lowest point. A point of complete and utter nothingness. It may not necessarily be when you were at you your lowest weight. It is the point where you no longer see the end to anything, or at least that is my definition of my lowest point of this illness. 

With sheer grit and determination, I have been in a state where I am no longer actively listening to anorexia or the grim anorexic voice. Call it quasi-recovery, it is the only thing that has kept me alive. To say I am recovered is a lie. Equally, to admit I have been in the recovery process presents me with a mixture of emotions: happiness, frustration, anger, numbness and more. While I want to make peace with myself, I do not think that I will ever (completely) be able to. I will settle with where I am because it is far far away from that abyss that I used to think was a life.

Hence, with lockdown restrictions now being eased, it makes me feel proud that I have survived it (albeit there have been a few ups and downs). Here I wanted to share my top tips of how, amidst having an eating disorder, I have coped.

My first tip is: DO NOT COMPARE YOURSELF TO WHAT OTHER PEOPLE ARE DOING ON THE INTERNET. Just because Karen is doing four workouts a day on her Instagram live does not mean you need to be. Do what is right for you and if that is a 10-minute walk or 50-minute yoga session that’s great. Do not allow the world of Instagram to deceive you. It can be a vortex of an edited reality. There is a distinction between the filter-perfect “reality” you see online and everyday life.

Establish a Routine. Whether that be the time you wake up, to when you are speaking to your friend on Zoom or when you are playing Sims, having a routine is so important. I personally find writing it down helps me stay accountable for the day ahead. I like to list out the things I want to achieve over the week, as well as writing To-Do lists on the day. I know it sounds excessive and I am aware lists are not for everything, but I would recommend writing a routine out if you haven’t tried it before.

Leading on from this I would also say Stick to Regular Mealtimes. Do not let yourself get into a habit of one day skipping a meal because it was too late to the next day allowing it to become a routine to miss that meal. There is a reason why humans need three meals a day. Regardless of what the eating disorder voice tells you, you are no different. 

I also cannot encourage Getting Outside Once A Day more. Make this non-negotiable. 

Talk to people. Sometimes we all need to talk to someone other than our family members. It helps to hear that you are not the only one having a difficult week.

Read. With seventy books set to read on my Goodreads annual challenge,  lockdown gave me the ideal opportunity to read those books that I have always said I wanted to read but never got around too. And by reading I really mean anything; even if you are not an Austen fan, how about subscribing to the New Yorker? Or listening to an audio-book? There are so many ways you can ingest literature and knowledge.

Give yourself something to look forward to each week. Be kind to yourself, knowing that you have an online shopping order once a week could be the thing that keeps you motivated during the week. Or, perhaps having a night where you watch your favourite film or get a takeaway coffee out – these are just three suggestions. I know it may sound silly but it can be the little things that might make the difference between a rough week versus a rough week made less rough by ordering the TALA sports bra you have been eyeing up for months. 

This is not a miracle article, nor the step by step guide to erasing your eating disorder over lockdown, but a vignette of ways to cope during a period of global uncertainty. Know that there is support out there as long as you want it badly enough. I am only ever an email or Instagram message away. Equally, B-eat offers a great email support service run by volunteers (of which I am one) as well as online support groups both individuals suffering from an eating disorder and as well as loved ones caring for a sufferer. Stay safe, stay strong.

Lots of Love,

Is 

My First Half-Marathon

I hope you are well and keeping safe. It can be overwhelming waking up to every day feeling like Sunday, but we must bear in mind that this will not be forever.

More to the point, this is a blog about my journey into running a half-marathon. Nine weeks prior to now, the Coronavirus concerns were solidifying. The government in the UK had not yet announced the lockdown however, non-essential businesses were starting to close down. Everyone was speculating the likelihood of the UK going into lockdown, and so I knew I needed to create a plan for myself for if the worst-case scenario did happen. For me, going to the gym is something I do every day as it gives me a sense of structure, purpose and motivation to get on with my day. But the gym is not essential, and so I knew that I would have to start getting used to doing more home workouts. 

I haven't always been into running. As a child, I did not excel at the exercise at all. I would be the last one chosen on the netball team and one of the runners at the back in the cross country race. However, as I got older, and I became more aware of my body, fitness became something I took an interest in. I quickly grew addicted to it. Exercise became something I HAD to do all the time. A day without it made me feel "lazy" and unproductive. It is an addiction I have never shaken off but am I mad about it? No. I love the feeling of being in a state where it is just you, your music and the floor. 

Running gives me a focus that no other exercise does: that is to move, not fall over and breathe. It can be uncomfortable, but you push through. I feel like running is the marmite of cardio: you either LOVE it or you detest the mention of it. I am lucky to be in the former group (most of the time).

Why did I want to run a half-marathon?

Sheer boredom or insanity? Actually neither. I have increased my mileage with running since the start of 2019, and I thought there was no better time than a global pandemic forcing us to stay at home to focus on improving it. Before I decided I wanted to do a half-marathon, the furthest I had run was 10 k. And honestly, as soon as I did my first 10 k, I did not anticipate ever wanting to run further than that again. Somehow, I did rerun a 10 k. And I have done it many times ever since. 

That takes me to now. I wanted a challenge and something that I could say to Job interviewers in 10 years when they ask: "What did you do during the Covid-19 pandemic?".

Further, I have always wanted to work with the charity B-eat. A charity which provides support for individuals suffering from eating disorders. B-eat also offers help and advice for families and friends affected. It is a charity close to my heart and one I will continue to work for in the future. 


How did I go about planning it?

I typed into YouTube: "training plan for a half-marathon". The video I chose assumed you could already run a 10 k which was perfect for me. It gave me a six-week training plan as a rough guide on how to train. So I drew up a pretty coloured coded plan and made it my priority to stick to it. From that point on, I could give myself a rough date when I thought I would run it. 

However, it is important to know that even being as dedicated as I was to my plan, there were times when life got in the way. Being flexible with your training schedule is just as key as being strict with it. If you are motivated enough, you will find a way around it. 

Did running get easier?

Honestly no. Even though my body could tolerate 15 km runs (a distance I had never thought I'd be able to run), the mid-week interval sessions were still a struggle. I have always been a long-distance runner as opposed to a quick sprinter; hardly surprising since I am a mere 5 foot 3. You learn that running is about mental agility, and you have to adopt the mind over matter mentality. Your body is capable of a lot more than your mind is. 

Ultimately, I wanted to write this article as a reference for anyone thinking of running their first 5 k or even a half-marathon. If I can do it, so can you! 

Isabella Clark ©


The main take-home points are:
• Include interval training in your running schedule. It helps add variety to your training and get your body used to running at a quicker (albeit more uncomfortable) pace.

• REST! That includes a decent amount of doing not a lot, sleep and food!

• Stretch after runs to prevent injuries.

• Warm up. Spending 5-10 minutes warming up before a run is so important. Do not underestimate the benefit of warming up. It will also ease you into the run and may help later down the line.

• Listen to your body. If you have a run on your training plan, but you are really not feeling it, don't push yourself. Of course, if you are doing skipping runs three times a week and it becomes a pattern, you may need to re-evaluate your training. However, if it is a case that your body is tired and you are not in the right headspace, that is ok. Your wellbeing always comes first.

• SLEEP. Getting a decent amount of sleep goes hand in hand with having a good run.

• Start slow and increase mileage gradually. If you are new to running - start with a goal of 3 km, not 5 km. It makes running feel a lot less daunting when you set yourself realistic goals.

Have a good playlist to listen to. Here is a link to my spotify playlist that I used on the day.

• Do not run every single day. Running is very stressful on the body, and especially in long-distance runners, your immune system is vulnerable for up to 72 hours after a long run.

• Lastly, do not beat yourself up over pace and time. Running is HARD. The fact that you are pushing yourself to do a run during a global pandemic is an achievement, and I am proud of you. Do not be fooled by people uploading 20 minute 5k's and "easy" 15km runs. You are doing fine as you are.

I guess here is to the next challenge. Did someone say a full marathon? The dream would be to do the London Marathon; it has always been on my bucket list. But for the time being, I am enjoying running without a specific goal or event in mind. I like to do between 2-4 runs a week, although it depends on whether I have any injuries and the weather. I am currently nursing my piriformis syndrome, which has taken me out of running for a little bit. However, I keep reminding myself that until you are not able to do something you formerly took for granted is when you appreciate that activity a bit more. 

I would like to add a HUGE thank you to everyone who donated to my JustGiving page. I managed to raise £401 for B-eat (133% of my goal!). I am so grateful and know that B-eat is too. Your support was invaluable to me being able to do this so, thank you. 


Lots of Love,

Is xxx

Isabella Clark ©
The very sweaty, dishevelled post-half-marathon look.


P.S. You are still able to donate to my JustGiving page if you have not already.  

Isolation and Life Right Now



If you are reading this, I assume that you are also in lockdown. As it stands, most places in the world right now are in an official lockdown due to the spread of COVID-19 or Coronavirus. No doubt, it has been one of the scariest things to happen to a lot of people; and especially in terms of a generation. Everyone’s daily routines have changed dramatically. Since I live in the UK, the current rules are primarily to stay at home, however, if you do need to go out stay 2 metres apart from other people and make sure these trips are either for your one form of exercise OR for food shopping or medicines. It’s a strange routine to adapt to, especially as someone who loves the outdoors. And even if you don’t like the outdoors, it is difficult having your freedom taken away from you. 

It is fair to say that, like most people, the “lockdown” situation has affected me. You can’t just pop to the shops when you need to or go on a run as and when you like; you are forced to make the decision when how you are going to use the freedom you do have. It has made me realise how much I took my freedom for granted. 

One of the hardest things to accept was that I would not be having my last term at uni. Term 3 is usually “exam season” at uni aka where everyone is in their rooms revising or going out to deny they have exams. Even though term 3 is probably the quietest (well the first six weeks at least), it is the idea that I didn’t get a choice whether I wanted to revise mostly at home or uni. Equally, the thought that I’m not going to be seeing my friends until (probably unless the situation in terms of travelling changes) September is a hard thing to accept. But I know, with how dangerous Coronavirus is, it is understandable why we are not allowed to return to campus for the time being. 

Amid Instagram live home workout videos, language learning apps and Tik Tok routines, I am trying to navigate how I feel about the lockdown situation. At first, it was a novelty: no need to leave the house unnecessarily so I could concentrate on essays, more time to be with my Mum, sister and cats etc. but it did not take long for the novelty to wear off. Surely I should have been more motivated to concentrate on my essays? I found myself feeling utterly overwhelmed and lost; aimlessly staring at my computer screen. Why wasn’t I getting work done? For someone who is relatively productive, it felt strange to be completely deflated and unable to get on with anything. 

It took a few days, but I spoke out and realised I wasn’t alone. Everyone around me was struggling with productivity too. Knowing I wasn’t the only one not getting sh$t done was reassuring. Whatever stage in life you are at, do not beat yourself up if you aren’t achieving everything you had planned to do right now. There is TIME. We do not know how long this lockdown is likely to last, therefore, take it as an opportunity to recharge. How often are you ever going to have a designated period where everything is shut to keep everyone alive? It’s time to listen to what your body needs.

I am going to share a few tips of what I have found helped me feel less overwhelmed with life:


1.     Find a Routine
Stick to a routine and sleep pattern. It helps make the days feel less long and same-y.

2.     Talk to a friend 
If you are living in a family or with another person, it is inevitable you will argue at some point. Sometimes just picking up the phone and speaking to someone else can help put things into perspective. It also means you can keep in touch with your loved ones and find out how they are coping. You do not need to be calling anyone and everyone, but knowing that those who are close to you care and are willing to give up time for you is special. Don’t take it for granted because this virus has proved that life is precious. 

3.     Boundaries
We all need space at times. Whether that’s having a safe room which you can retreat to or an activity which allows people to know that you need to be on your own. It is ok to have some time on your own; don’t be ashamed of it. 

4.     Make Lists
I find listing out all the things I want to achieve helps set my mind for the day. Also, writing daily intentions are a great way of setting your mood and ensuring you make the right choices.

5.     USE YOUR ONE FORM OF EXERCISE
It would be so easy to stay indoors for days on end. You are being told to ‘Stay At Home’ so what’s the point of going outside. But trust me when I say it, spending 5, 10, 30 minutes outside once a day is the best thing you can do for yourself. 

As a regular gym bunny, it was hard to accept that I wouldn’t be able to go to the gym or do my favourite Soul Cycle classes in London for quite some time. Instead, I am using this time to focus on what I can do: home workouts and running. I am challenging myself to run a half marathon around May simply around my local area. No one has forced me to, it’s just a way of me making me feel like I am training for something. I’m not going to lie, I am week 3 into training and it is getting tough but I am going to try and power through! I would love to know how everyone’s training has changed. 

Feel free to drop me a direct message on Instagram


I know this is a hard time, but I promise we are going to get through. I hope you are keeping safe and am sending so much love your way. We have got this.

Lots of love,
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Is xx

Isabella Clark ©